Thursday, November 29, 2012

a legion of dead Jews in Chico's head


11.29.2012

I’m staying in the room a little longer this morning, expecting the French ladies will come for breakfast, I hope to miss them and avoid emotions of shyness which in truth isn’t really the reason at all.  Look, when one isn’t a non-native speaker I will have the advantage and I think it’s unfair that the L2 has to speak English because I don’t speak French, German, Turkish, Chinese, ok not Chinese, Nepalese, Polish, Brazilian, Honduran, Spanish, Lithuanian and so forth.  So?

The mountains were not around this morning but the sun did rise but now plays hide and seek with drifters.  The room during the night is quite cool and the blanket is the only refuge.  I do need to wear long-johns, a few long sleeve t-shirts and socks for the right balance.  Last night’s moon showed Pokhara under a dark hazy blue. 

I have made no decision regarding the tangka and the drum.  I wouldn’t hesitate if I had more money but why do I really need to save anymore?  Where do you want to go at the end of the year?  @#!!

I wrapped up Suraksha’s sudden growth of edible birthday gifts and taped them shut inside a clear shopping bag and she looked at it and shook it and she was much better in controlling her lustful cocoa desires.  Only a few more days, kiddo, it’s a good tradition to wait and patience is a virtue most of the time.

You have good life brother.  I do sometimes but I’ve given up so much and what do I have to show for it.  A corner room with the sun rising right in your bed.  That’s good.  Lamjung and Annapurna 2 to my left, that’s good. Living with a family that may be as crazy as I am, that may not be so good all the time but we look for a balance and I’m sure my behavior may leave them dispirited though I don’t know what those moments may be this year, certainly four years ago I was on the lam full steam playing football with the spirits, imagine a whole living room full of dead Jews. 

When it is cloudy the chill in the air remains and even fat wool socks aren’t doing it.  Moving away from this computer and stretching and getting the blood going will help.  Ok, first a big toke?  A little morning music?  Are the Frenchies gone, it’s almost eight.  The yellow apples I gave to Maya were appreciated though I haven’t tried one.  A hundred and forty rupees for one kg.  Eight apples.  There were no kids on the trail asking for anything and Prem Maya wasn’t there to reluctantly take one for her four girls.  Four girls and Tika decided to take the job in Afghanistan.  He awaits for a visa in Kathmandu.  It’s been a week of waiting.  The money was too good to pass up.  Life on the mountain, while it is clean and fresh and you’re with family there’s just no income and it’s a sacrifice.  Or is it.  Making money dishonestly will always get you in the end.  Taking advantage of someone’s sympathy in order to make money will always get you in the end.  It’s enough to stay in this room. 

Well, all aside leaves things alone and misunderstanding or accepting differences we move.  Didi cleaned up a major part of the lower garden and today I moved a pile of wood scraps and a pile of cement pieces.  Good enough for today.  In the shade I need all I have though the sun is out. And Didi’s daughter comes by to let me know I believe there is tea waiting above.  She took a shower her wet hair is long.  The nineteen year old should find a handsome someone in the future if I am dead wrong in the water.

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