It is from reading that I currently see my depression more or less comes melancholy, astute instances that leave me listless and unsure of the direction I must proceed. And it is empathy, too much of it, a facet in life I cannot live with or without, that prevents me from doing anything too rash which would leave me in even a worse state of mind. What to do but wait for the next wave to ride, this cannot be good. While I seek direction ambition is fleeting. I know what I would like to do but without any counsel I remain in a state of constant stalemate. Lord, if I could ask of anything it would be to lead me to someone who I can work out this complex state of affairs. It is by helping around the house with chores that keeps hoping to remain afloat until an opportunity arises where I may be of use to others.
All I want to do and be for now is to take the moment and be a good steward. I am given a chance to help and will do so but Lord, to be a hindrance, to be an obstacle to someone else's discouragement may I be cast out so as to never give anyone stress. I need family, do they need me Lord may it never be that I become a burden. A financial burden in any case, I have nothing to give other than my efforts, may you find them true and without false and selfish intentions.
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