Saturday, January 30, 2016

alter your own ego



before I go make something for lunch I just want to give a shout out to my alter ego.  I thought you were a spirit you fucking wanker.  My alter ego.  I created and fed my alter ego, my avatar, my little bunny I will now call Harvey.

Have a seat, have a smoke while you’re at it and relax.  I have two eggs to cook and maybe there’s some bread to put some peanut butter on.  And a cup of tea will be nice.  The sun is out, the wind blows chilly, a beautiful 50 degree day for a jog, a game of catch.  Here I walk around the building four times, each time is 90 seconds.  And when am I gonna break out the jump rope, dude, let’s do it.

A doppelganger arcs into the universe paralleling my own universe when an avatar sees the future, if only for a few seconds, for my own good.  I timed the avator’s view into the future and it was ten seconds. I don't think an alter ego can see the future at all.

1.30.16

Hanoi saw snow this year, yesterday?  Earlier this week?  Crazy dude.  Here I keep the window open in the blue room even though it is only 53 but as the days go on I am getting a little bit more sun into the place.  My hands are numb for light. 

I like what Martin Luther did.  It was necessary.  But he could have never imagined, could he, that there’d be 40,000+ denominations to thank him five hundred years later.  Nice job.  I think.  I don’t know.  Luther wished to remain a Catholic but the tide was too fast and the tsunami of freedom and the printing press changed everything.  A most important milestone in human history, you think?  Close enough to see and feel and experience the wave of freedom bursting forth with the greatest zeal. 

So,  when you think faith you think power and look what Protestantism has done for the world that Catholicism hasn’t done for the world.  I think half of the Prods have done what the Church would approve of and that half accepts the church for what the church is, it’s older than ya’ll that’s for sure.  And more believable.  Go see Titus’s relics in Florence at St. Marks Cathedral.  Connections to a past we have to believe and makes us believe.  I think the protestant fellas should take a more liberal view of symbols.  Symbols have been teaching and guiding people since the beginning.  And then go see it in practice in India among the Hindus and Buddhists, Catholics and Muslims. 

Leuven in August, eh?  Not much time, eh, to do too much which is a good thing if an orientation begins in September.  mother of jesus you’re not serious are you, do you think it’s gonna happen?  What?  Should I keep looking for a better job?  What is that?  Is it in the states?  Are the better jobs in the states?  Why do I not feel ready to enter the country again, is it a place you can’t feel you can settle down?  get me a job in Houghton.  can I live there for the next…35 years?  I don’t think so.  old men like warm temps.  the Caribbean.  nancy, frank, advice on condo buying on an island with the occasional hurricane 200 miles off the coast so we can enjoy the occasional dark clouds and winds safely.

8:12pm—I need to eat something here but first, I read a summary of a fb friend’s dissertation which she sent me.  Fascinating stuff but I wrote down all these phrases and words I have no idea what they mean so here are a few because from what I read, I understand a few things a little clearer, sort of.

spiritual alchemy       
practiced solipsistically    
panenanthropic
becoming Aion
inherent divinity
salvific
          esoteric holism…exacerbates  solutions to world peace and America’s spiritual crisis
Giordano Bruno and the Theosophical Society
primitive religious experience
Hermetism
self-divinization is sacrificial

Ok, that last phrase is kind of creeping me out and needs to be identified and filleted if necessary. 

First using the word self in front of divinity in the noun form has lots of implications namely that man can attain divinity himself without divinity to help him.  I’m sure it’s more than that, buddy.  But it is sacrificial, isn’t it.  In every way.


wow there’s a lot here, I’ll have to come back to it, but yeah,  I’m doing it now, practicing alchemy, what else is there to do around here?


I learned a new word today:  ‘The All is in the person’ is panenanthropic or panenanthropism.  And the author of this mind-bending article is the fb friend who has me spending the evening looking up words I don’t know and I’ll take a gander at this article, it is interesting to start…yikes, a rare psychological issue here, is it defined in the DSM-4?  Probably.  Well, I have to ask before I read anymore but the examples in the article, the two boys who killed, they’re pretty young to have absorbed what the writer is explaining.  I mean what did these killers know?  What did they read?  Is there madness inherit?  Is it learned or is it innate?  I should read more but I have the morning class coming up soon.

And there are a few words I didn’t write down but did me cause for alarm, the esoteric.  I hope I am not one of these though mingling the faiths together might be done by a few.  The occult is mentioned but ya know I am not there, man.  I understand and dig the shaman stuff because that makes sense but I need to stay away from the ‘new age’ selfish tomfoolery.  And there’s a lot of it.

And to be clear, Buddhism is not new age. 

We ate outside for lunch today, a tad brisk but the sun felt good and Rezek cooked a meal my mother could have whipped up herself, meatballs in a tomato sauce along with boiled potatoes, crunchy bread, rice, and a salad, in this case today, tomatoes and cucumber pieces in meste, yogurt.

It is possible, isn’t it, to trace a people from the food eaten?  Right?  This is the same damn food the Germans eat.  Where the hell do I go with this I haven’t before yet, it’s driving me loony.

Is there anything else here before we go to sleep, ok, listen to a little Ennio Morricone…


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