aimless spirit, shanti

http://www.hinduwebsite.com/hinduism/h_suicide.asp

There is nothing from this website that instructs those alive on earth on how to pray for a wandering aimless spirit who is going to suffer perhaps worse than those who are suffering right now.

If anything sustains this family is that his parents were good people, respected in the community, it might bring some uncomfortable and awkward moments, what do you say, consolation is so great now.  Social stigmas are bad in Nepal and they are full of them, superstitions and beliefs I guess like those mentioned in this site play hard ball, I don’t know how the villagers will treat the children.  God what a mess.  Life is hard enough don't you think? show mercy.    

“In general, Hinduism condemns suicide, but in specific instances accepts it as a meritorious act of self sacrifice.  What distinguishes both is intention or the purpose.  Suicide as a selfless act is sacred and liberating.”

A thin thread to hold onto, a selfless act, I don’t know.  His intentions weren’t to hurt anyone and he has, terribly done just that.  Too much shame, a loss of face, no wonder Nepalese aren’t expressing much on line.  To them, according to this article,  a family, a town, face unimaginable consequences far reaching. 

Bad Karma, I suppose it is wrong to write of such things now, if anything I pray for the protection of his children and wife and parents.  Coming to them, seeing them, will bring no shame onto them.  It is in grieving. 

Something bad must have happened.  Something so bad I cannot imagine right now.  What could cause me to throw a rope over a branch and around my neck?  Despair, the kind of momentary hopelessness, a sadness that cuts off all reason, all considerations, all possibilities, Lord.  What can I do.  What should I do. 

Imagine in my last few blogs of all my boring bleatings  and now this, something far greater and worse.  I have to survive this day. 

6:01pm

How does one stop bad karma?  When one stops hurting.  And that might be two or three generations who will always hurt to a degree when they think of the man who ended his own life. 

In Sanskrit suicide means atmahatya, the murdering of the soul.  Yet I think his soul killed him.  In either case such precedents are understood in Hindu culture and if what I understand from this link above is correct, Laxman’s spirit is going to remain between the realms of heaven and earth and move aimlessly, that is, if he has been rendered a bad spirit though the spirit wasn’t always bad on earth that has to be worth something, he will roam aimlessly until his ‘expected span of life’ is complete then he goes to hell for a time to suffer because his body was sacred and then a little more because of all the suffering he is causing now, and then he will return to earth again to complete his previous karma and start from there, from the beginning, once again. 

His previous karma was seen and understood and loved, he had good karma, but the demons in his head, or his once good spirit went bad over something I do not understand yet.

So, Laxman, wandering spirit you are now, if you can read you dumb shit, you do your time in the realms, or in the consciousness, you do some time in hell and then you have another chance.  None of us may be around when that chance comes again.  We will only remember the body you occupied and the good things about you that you have taken away from everyone.  Your own children, this kind of bad karma, brother I don’t know how to say it but that was one dumb stunt.

Soon I hope I can write of the good he left behind.

“Let the first act of every morning be to make the following resolve for the day:

- I shall not fear anyone on Earth.
- I shall fear only God.
- I shall not bear ill will toward anyone.
- I shall not submit to injustice from anyone.
- I shall conquer untruth by truth. And in resisting untruth, I shall put up with all suffering.”
― Mahatma Gandhi