Friday, August 22, 2014

an adverse tradition



8.22.14

10.18am-It hasn’t rained today though algae thick fog embraces everything.  And it is warm enough to take a few layers off.  I declined the job to pick up milk this morning because I’ll see the grandparents on my last day here tomorrow.  I don’t know if I am going to see the Tibetans this trip.  A planned lunch was cancelled and then I postponed a meeting and there is only tomorrow and tomorrow is packing and saying goodbyes and drinking tea.  What to do.  Nyima was a significant individual in this whole crazy journey.  His medium and the spirit who would later sync with me had something to discuss.  A meeting of two entities and I haven’t the faintest today of what that conversation may have been about other than what he suggested was two old friends meeting again.  Right.  And this whole missing spirit thing will always leave me thinking unless I can get an answer and now that’s he gone, what to do. 

Walking along the lake front I saw Ringtheen (?) the 38 year old Tibetan woman with perfect teeth who sold me odds and ends a few years ago and of course I looked at her stuff though my only interest was a ring to replace my Tulufan jade brass ring.  She didn’t bring any rings but I wound up buying something for the key chain.  And while we talked and I listened to the Tibetan plea for justice here in Nepal I reminded her of a longer and more deadly conflict and she should be lucky.  Lucky?  This is my only money, I have no passport.  No one is bombing you here, Didi.  She thinks my Nepalese has improved and I told her if she weren’t married surely she’d make it to the US and live a life full of commercials and taxes.  And she’d be free.

Prem Maya and Tika tend to their gardens right below.  Their property comes right up to the building and Tika plants large bare branches into the ground for beans to wrap themselves up and out.  Perhaps in three or fewer years the two will build another row of rooms right in front of room five and the rest.  And that, would be it. 

1.28pm

The sun is out strong, hazy skies, the paragliders are back with the big birds.  I have looked at the nicer hotels in Kathmandu and feel guilty only with one.  I don’t know where I’ll stay but I’d like a view and that’ll be where I go. 

I’m ready to go.  Five weeks was a good amount of time.  I don’t know how I did ten months, holy shiva. 

Prem Maya is working hard below today, pulling out the chopped stalks and tilling the soil.  Normally she commands the guesthouse, usually from a bamboo chair in the shop or the roof.  She’s talking to herself, ‘..bistarly…’ in the sun and mud, pulling those rooty stalks is not easy work with only a prehistoric hand claw.  She pants and tears up another.  She rests and a loud audible sigh is released, she throws stones out of the plot she has finished.  On top of the clean plot is a pile of fresh moist manure, waiting to become a useful form of energy.  She grunts, I’m done.

5.00pm

The non-coincidental returns with a young man, brother, boyfriend, most likely the latter.  Why?  She hopes I will see she is still not and will never be, available.  I know she’s thinking our meeting was a sign, she believes in signs though she’s trying to flee from her ancestral roots and be a 21st century citizen.  Well good luck to you.  Our encounter was indeed a manufactured sign and you interpret it one way and I the other.  Your interpretation is one of defiance, mine is peace.  I’m not interested in you, honey. Shanti.

It has been a splendid day with lots of sun, blue sky, and cool winds.  Guests with a guide check into room one.  I almost took a shower in room one today, hoping instead there’ll be plenty of solar heating sunshine tomorrow.  Maya and Ram clean and till the plot of land that separates the plot Prem Maya cleared.  I told Maya the woman was speaking to herself and it was unfortunate I didn’t speak Nepali but it was enough to go out with the wolf-boy and get it ready.  Was she complaining about someone else’s land or was she simply not interested in doing this work I’ll never know nor do I want to know.  In three years there might be concrete where she plants squash tomorrow. 

Next time I need to bring eye drops.  The eyes itch an hour from dusk when I will most likely begin sneezing and fighting ferocious mosquitoes.  A calm evening one expects tonight, maybe a sunset worth going up.

There are no laws stopping my cousin from building right in front of my own. 

Traditions are being honored even though it will adversely affect someone else.  And no one wants to or is willing to change that tradition. 

And democracy has no place in some places.

Ke garne, what to do. 

10.48pm

The rain falls hard extending the streak.  Laxman and I chatted with the couple from room one, their guide, and a mysterious beauty the guide said was his cousin.  I am happy to see the Oppenheimer bio go to the German woman who is working for Dior in Abu Dhabi.  She recommended ‘Red Horizons’ about a Romanian and his experience during the cold war.  In our conversation I managed to share my theory, my idea, about ending the crisis between Israel and Palestine.  But I didn’t mention the change of interpretation of slavery.  Maybe tomorrow.  Tomorrow, packing, cleaning, visiting.  Balrum came by to say hello and I said I’d come by to say goodbye.  Clean for two weeks, he looks scarier now. 

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