Monday, May 23, 2016

with determined imminence



I submitted my letter of resignation this afternoon, there were wise veterans at my disposal to counsel and decide the right course of action.  I only cc:d people in hr and from them they will turn to the department and they will work it out.  His last day is This.    

The Emerald Isle was on and off my radar for years so now is the time and the half way point to the Glove to begin the process of getting a Belgian student visa.  Is it still possible?

The AUAF is ghostly quiet now that UG and company have left.  And my two afternoon classes finish the day after tomorrow.  That’ll leave me with this restless new class.  They are going to test you, aren’t you happy you got at least that? I don’t know, sounds like the time to read Melville as soon as I finish the hawk book.  I read a few pages today but not much going there.  I’m sure there will be something else given, believe me a ruffled Englishman is one who finds work for someone he’s losing. 

walter:  ma, do ya think he might be onto something there with that Jesus-Buddha connection?

ma:  daft as mold.  He’s delusional.

walter:  heaven broke loose a little there for him, I reckon.  to say you synchronized with an ancient spirit, ya can’t make that kind of mustard up can ya?

ma:  who the hell knows.  people don’t meet their guardian angels, people don’t say their angel’s name is none other than the prophet Job, no, I don’t know.  It went a little too far seven years ago and apparently we ain’t finished with it.

walter:  makes sense to me on this lower plane of life, faiths working together, it’s kind of cool if you think about it.  Merge the masses together at the end of everyone’s end until then they remain forever separate because that’s the way it is but just above all that they’re playing lawn darts over there, shhh they’re working on something I can’t quite make it out, can’t you imagine that?

ma:  you smoking anything legal or illegal, kid?

5.23.16

An instant coffee, strong, and toast with homemade apricot jam appears to have lifted my drowsy countenance.  A transport will leave for the university at 12:10pm and I will take it, eat lunch there,  a final prep for one class, teach, and return to the empty first ground floor.  The professor of finance from HK has departed so I turned off his 24/7 television and turned the room’s light off as well and at night it is dark in the hall.  And quiet.

The head of the Taliban was killed in Baluchistan by a US drone.  The country’s el-chapo, in real truths, is the head of a snake who moves opium mostly purchased by Americans. 

Would you buy or sell your stock in the pharmacy business if you knew the supply and demand business could be altering right now. 

It’s so silly.  The Afghan army HAS to go in and confiscate all the dope farms and seal it up and then build a national pharmaceutical company and make your own opiads and then you can sell to the Americans and be rich.  What is wrong with this picture?  Nothing at all.  All Afghans have to work collectively in the Interest of their country first, tribe second, family third, and livestock fourth. 

And honest men and women have to manage it.  Everything has to be transparent, yes management will be wealthier than the workers down the line, but offer them jobs and wages that will satisfy what they need and what they need is nowhere as much an American thinks he needs to be happy.

Family first, fresh food and drinkable water, shelter, good shelter, schools, small businesses paved roads 24 hour electricity though I think some Kandaharis appeared to be just fine living in the dark, and everyone is wealthy because opium is more valuable than oil right now and everyone knows how the money is spent.   Is that even remotely possible, if the money is managed by elected, chosen, publicly known people, honest people, Afghan first people with no dari-pashtun-tajik prejudicial sentimentalities that color objectivity with millennia old racism.

No, you don’t want those kind of folks running your country. 

Must Afghanistan wait another generation to find these kind of people who can be in places of great responsibility?  Where is Afghanistan’s PM Modi?

I guess it’s time to get ready for the methodical trip to the campus.  What is that trip like?  A mangled concrete road with holes and speed bumps until we get to the main road Dar alum and we dodge and swerve and stop for anyone stuck crossing the road and then it’s Whiskey 0 to Gulf 1 and the big sliding doors open and close and mirrors look under the vehicle for my determined imminence and then another sliding door closes and another ones and here we are, inspect my bag, sir, it’s your job and into the strange office.

A cloudy day, a bit of thunder, but still bright.  God Help us all.

7.23pm—An Indian Omellete and an Americano for lunch and five hours later you’ll feel like a volcano is going to erupt, hurry transport hits every unfortunate spot on the way to the loo. whew.

teacher;  I’m pretty sure there is an opposite to everything.

student:  teacher what is the opposite of medium?

On the first pitch he hits a ball to deep right center field he's going back….   

8:00pm—dinner, a large bowl of cheerios with banana, now a cup of green tea and two cheap shortbread cookies.  I considered an egg but this afternoon’s egg is enough today.  Pasta, na.

I will draw a circle on the board and draw a line down the middle.  I will write the question, is there an opposite to everything?  Well, the middle is that which joins the opposites.  black and white.  And is the middle, the medium.  And what is and other than the balance between the opposites.

What’s the opposite of a pomegranate? 

Is vegetable the opposite of fruit?

What do the banana and the eggplant have in common?


A good way to end the day.


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